Even extreme sex can become routine. Abella Danger had cuckold scenes, massive BBCs, multiple black men, eventually she needed something more. She needs hyper aggression- something no whiteboi could ever provide. That’s why you are stuck gooning to her
You’re a camera man. A documentarian. A tripod. You’re literally demoted in your own marriage to the role of photographer. You’re certainly not going to be in any of the photos or videos so you may as well make yourself useful.
Relax, it's not the pixels protecting you… It's just that, even without seeing clearly, you know you're not going to make it. Blurry or not, your inferiority is perfectly understandable.