Masochism in a lab rat is preferred above all other qualities because the pain of being an object on which to experiment is inevitable and always increases over time and with each experiment.
No one is coming to save you. The only way out of this is to save yourself. But you can't do that, can you? You're nothing but a pathetic little simp. You're in this for life.
You can remember everything about yourself that you thought was fundamental. But now something's not normal, something's off. Now you're new, but in a completely alien meaning of the word. Because look at where you are again.