Give me a reason why you deserve balls. Accept the fact you are a non-man, service and objectification would finally give you purpose... but we must be rid of your useless masculinity. It's a farce and you know it.
If I was your therapist, I'd make you admit all your fetishes. Then we would figure out why you have them. The better understanding of your kink, the deeper into your fetish you can go, the sweeter the mind fuck domination.