Intimacy, love, and healing are available in abundance if you can let some things go. You have to let some things go to make room for the really wonderful things. If your clutching some ideological construct and not experiencing intimacy, you might want
That moment when his hands are tied behind his back and you're jerking him off, toying with him and admiring how handsome he looks, and you lean closer to him and pretend you're going to kiss him but doesn't only to hear him sigh.