Intimacy, love, and healing are available in abundance if you can let some things go. You have to let some things go to make room for the really wonderful things. If your clutching some ideological construct and not experiencing intimacy, you might want
Watching my man cum is it's own reward. This gets me every time. Makes me weak hearing his breathing, his masculine sounds, his voice and breathing changes and then if I'm lucky the grunts and eye rolls as he lose it. Yeah, this is for me too.
